Yes, I don't want you to disclose anything you don't want to. Use my comment as an advice, correct or incorrect.

However, I've been thinking about it while reading your texts and I really can't remember anything weird with you. Usually so called hidden emotions are far more visible to others than the expressed ones. I seem to stumble with people with mental issues and believe me I've seen lots of it. You had heavy stuff like divorce and I can't remember you over or under-reacting in any way. You weren't perfectly happy, no-one is, but what I'd describe with a term so controversial today - normal.

Of course these things are not distinct. Mental problems show most clearly in the intimate relationships and people behave there very consistently. If you have problems either with your parents, spouses, or (work/school)mates, it is very improbable you don't have similar problems also with other two.

I know I shouldn't be messing with this but when I read about problems, I can't help thinking about what they're really about. This idea of mine about a borderline girlfriend has popped into my mind for months or years every time I read your texts. Now when I got it out, I can shut up.

(I'm leaving for countryside tomorrow, but now I'm thinking if I should stay in the city.. I'll let you know if I stay.)