I agree with Brian, that paragraph was a perfect way to end this post :) I understand very well all you have written, even if through different experiences, "battles" and degrees, I can relate to all those feelings. Social interaction was always one of my inner battles, have some kind of “social anxiety” (don’t know other way to call it) and need to be with myself to recharge batteries, and this makes one suffer in a strange way: suffer both from the “cure” and the “disease” (it is a portuguese expression translated roughly), in this case, sometimes I suffer both from being with people and at the same time from being alone. So I understand very well this feeling. No idea when this inner battle started (remember that in very very young was not like this), but know that familiar/emotional problems made it worst at some points, and/or in the other hand feeling loved made it better in other times (but when one can’t thrust people, being loved becomes harder). I always saw life like a big “intergalactic school for the soul” were you grow by practice, by try and error, so I always tried to deal with each inner battle with patience, like a growth process. Sometimes I may lose sight of this and forget the big picture, but that is why it is nice to read your blog, it helps remember the big picture :) Your view on life is very positive and inspiring, it is indeed not about having everything solved and perfect from the start, but about solving and making it all perfect till the end – every good book that I like has a plot thanks to this problem solving battle, otherwise would be a boring book. Keep up writing your life-adventure book full of great experiences :)

PS: Trough comments I feel that writing about inner stuff is a little therapeutically, one day I need to stop being lazy and finish my homepage (that I have been working on for 10 years more or less but never finish lol) and add a blog part to explore this; reading your blog has made me feel more into finishing it, someday maybe.