Thank you for your kind words, both of you. I really appreciate it.

I come back to this thread after spending an evening talking with my partner who was encouraging, she said things like -- "you show so much more passion elsewhere" -- and "perhaps you can find work elsewhere" and "perhaps software isn't your thing."

I then sat down with craftsman. Two chimed in and said they were former software developers until of late. Another said he gave up his craft to be a software developer. We live in such an interesting times.

I'll go read Clementine's blog post.

Erkka, if you want, I can send you a link to my public journal on PM on Unreal forums. I try to post regularly, and I've added pictures of my life. It's becoming a positive thinking medium for me and friends.

Best.