Hi Erkka! I loved this one. First, I was so jealous of being invited to three parties in a weekend, and all of them sounded so free and fun. Then, I thought of what a good writer you are, and how a large part of that separateness that I feel in crowds I always attribute to the writer part of me, the part that always holds myself back and takes notes. Then, I was so admiring of your knowledge that the only way to deal with those deep emotions is to invite them in, feel them fully, and watch them disperse. It's as if they just need to be experienced, and only then can they leave. It is wonderful to read someone who understands this. Our culture has such an avoidance mentality, but really it is the ability to fully experience these feelings that will release them. Only then can you truly dance in freedom and the bliss of the self below those patterns and emotions. Thank you for a wonderful read!